With all this information you give me I don't think I will sleep again ha ha, In the last 4 days I think I have had 20 hours sleep...either I have got to much new exciting things to think about or it could be the baby that keeps saying feed me love me teach and show me... ha ha either way I sure am learning more than I expected I ever would.

Things just are not black and white anymore.

A wise man once told me craig.."to understand energy you must first understand energy can not be created nor destroyed."

When I think of your mind's eye and the path I am on, I have to wonder... not to try and be negative but if we are all energy and are reality is simply a projection from our holographic mind of energy...Do we really have a meaning for existence?

We could project ourselves into matter of life for what purpose. Some of us do chose our own pain in life by the choices we make, but why would we chose to learn such things?

I grew up the hard way, listening to know one but myself I left home when I was 13. I know deep down I chose every step I took. I never wanted to admit that I wanted the life I lived because people thought that would be weird. Some times people would say "oh you poor child, you had a ruff life" but I did'nt understand why... I did what I chose to do and I chose to learn things the way I did because... well maybe I don't really know why.. but I never felt sorry for myself? It never made sense to?

I think about what I want for the whole trip, and the only answer I get is that I want to know the truth about why I am here and why I chose it. I guess I chose the life I had because it made me able to see things from mutiple angles rather than tunnel vision.

I do beleive we choose our family before we are born and this prooves my own theory because each person in my family and life is so completly different from the other that I can't even have any one of them in the same room together with out fist fights? ha ha

I find that funny though...my boyfriend and I talked about getting married...all empty threats though...he is scared of how a wedding would go with our different types of family and friends... I am excited to see everone clash.. he thinks I am nuts for finding it funny but no matter what happened I would look back and laugh. It would make for good party footage too don't you think haha.

So back to my question do you believe energy can not be created nor destroyed?

If you can't be created why are you here?
and if we cant' be destroyed will we one day find our selves floating amoung our energy with no place left to project our thoughts?

What your take?

I would really love to read the book you told me about, would I be able to find it at a store near me?

Thank you for all your words of freindship craig

curious Jenn

ps is that how you spell curious?? ha ha