Confusion??

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Confusion??

Message written by

Jennifer
November 13, 2004 at 10:28:14:

Hello Craig my friend,
Continually I am looking for some answers and as you may Have noticed even though I am searching for so many things I don't seem to have clear questions.
I have one rule in my train of thought...everything comes to choice...What I don't understand is why we all make such drasticlly different choices....my conclusion is are awareness level tells us what choices we have.....I don't understand why people would choose to expierence an ego...if you are confortable at home ( holographic world ) why would you leave...
I tried to understand why I myself did what I have done and I use it as a reference but if I chose to leave home why would I leave only to spend my life searching for it?
Soemthings I feel have happened to make me want a consistant connection...I want to go home....but I know I can't cause I havent finished what I started...what have I got myself into?
Maybe I have not delt with all my choices and that is why I am still stuck on the question why? I try to push to far ahead...maybe I am not on the fence,I say I am but that might be a way to calm myself. I am still stuck on why? why does the fence exist...
What comes after why, Who What Where When Why?...What isleft with when the questions are gone. Do you still wonder? Maybe I fear this, If I had any fears this would be the biggest one.
Do you ever feel confused anymore? Is it still as exciting if you are not confused?
From this position I have placed myself in...only some of it adds up...To be honest I believe I chose this life...I live from what I have chosen I guess I really don't know why I did cause If I picture some one else living this life I want to throw up, I used to hope for the bad stuff to happen to me because it would be easier for others, and the bad stuff did happen so it was my choice to take the burden. I have decided the burden does not exist and it works and does not bother me. although some things haunt me even though I believed I have moved on. I used to be stuck in self pitty untill I realized it could be worse. Then one day I realized the events were all my choice. I have tried to ignore the burden of knowing that these events were created by myself but more importantly I try to think past it all and concentrate on the big picture but why would I want to learn something I truly already know?
Thanks for your guidance craig, I appreciate it...alot.
Sincerly
Jennifer

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: Hello Craig my friend, : Continually I am looking for some answers and as you may Have noticed even though I am searching for so many things I don't seem to have clear questions. : I have one rule in my train of thought...everything comes to choice...What I don't understand is why we all make such drasticlly different choices....my conclusion is are awareness level tells us what choices we have.....I don't understand why people would choose to expierence an ego...if you are confortable at home ( holographic world ) why would you leave... : I tried to understand why I myself did what I have done and I use it as a reference but if I chose to leave home why would I leave only to spend my life searching for it? : Soemthings I feel have happened to make me want a consistant connection...I want to go home....but I know I can't cause I havent finished what I started...what have I got myself into? : Maybe I have not delt with all my choices and that is why I am still stuck on the question why? I try to push to far ahead...maybe I am not on the fence,I say I am but that might be a way to calm myself. I am still stuck on why? why does the fence exist... : What comes after why, Who What Where When Why?...What isleft with when the questions are gone. Do you still wonder? Maybe I fear this, If I had any fears this would be the biggest one. : Do you ever feel confused anymore? Is it still as exciting if you are not confused? : From this position I have placed myself in...only some of it adds up...To be honest I believe I chose this life...I live from what I have chosen I guess I really don't know why I did cause If I picture some one else living this life I want to throw up, I used to hope for the bad stuff to happen to me because it would be easier for others, and the bad stuff did happen so it was my choice to take the burden. I have decided the burden does not exist and it works and does not bother me. although some things haunt me even though I believed I have moved on. I used to be stuck in self pitty untill I realized it could be worse. Then one day I realized the events were all my choice. I have tried to ignore the burden of knowing that these events were created by myself but more importantly I try to think past it all and concentrate on the big picture but why would I want to learn something I truly already know? : Thanks for your guidance craig, I appreciate it...alot. : Sincerly : Jennifer

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