Re: I'm back (to square one)

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Jennifer
November 13, 2004 at 10:38:44:

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Re: I'm back (to square one)
posted by Talyiesin
November 11, 2004 at 12:40:50:

: Merry Meet, all
: Jennifer, my version of rationalizing spirituality consisted of seeking the answers through book knowledge; for example, looking up strange occurrences about haunted spots or something and expecting spiritual nourishment. Implicit with this is the desire to find one clique that "represents" all that "spiritual"-ness you have longed for. For myself, this changed from the beatniks to the gnostics to the Theosophists to the Romantic poets to the Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn.
: Craig, my definition of something solid to latch onto is something that provide some sort of guidance. My dilemma is maintaining the balance between eclecticism and structure. Excuse my cynicism, but I feel like I'm being thrown a whole bunch of phrases like "discover who you are" and "God is love" and then being cast out on my own, with the expectation that some coherent self-affirming, comfortable belief system will spontaneously arise out of the dissonance. I find that that doesn't work. To put it in crude terms, how does one make their life more "spiritual"? Search inside of me? What exactly does that mean? And what happens when your personal impression of the answers you are looking for, changes from day to day? If this means I'm not looking properly, then how does one look properly? I don't expect any one source or author or guru to answer all of these. My main grip is that none of them seem to answering any of them.
Hello my friend, I totally agree, I don't understand why I have so much confusion and when I get the answers I feel like I have asked the wrong questions.
I seems like I asked my mom why the sky is blue, she said because the different chemicals create a a haze of blue around us...I told her I already knew that tell why...I do this all the time though that is why with me every thing I ask gives me an answer I already know because I don't even know the proper questions to ask. I don't know how to communicate what I am thinking... I don't even know how to look for what I am searching for but plug away I do at a job I don't even know exists. I want to follow my path to the end... that's nice I say...what is my goal...find a goal focus achieve then what?
What is the piont to the end if the end already exists?
I wonder should I just start enjoying what is here or do I search for something more? the search is fun the confusion to learning is not, what pro beats what con?
Confusion kills me yet it is the only way to grow...maybe. A child gows, adults shrink?
Jenn

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: : Merry Meet, all : : Jennifer, my version of rationalizing spirituality consisted of seeking the answers through book knowledge; for example, looking up strange occurrences about haunted spots or something and expecting spiritual nourishment. Implicit with this is the desire to find one clique that "represents" all that "spiritual"-ness you have longed for. For myself, this changed from the beatniks to the gnostics to the Theosophists to the Romantic poets to the Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn. : : Craig, my definition of something solid to latch onto is something that provide some sort of guidance. My dilemma is maintaining the balance between eclecticism and structure. Excuse my cynicism, but I feel like I'm being thrown a whole bunch of phrases like "discover who you are" and "God is love" and then being cast out on my own, with the expectation that some coherent self-affirming, comfortable belief system will spontaneously arise out of the dissonance. I find that that doesn't work. To put it in crude terms, how does one make their life more "spiritual"? Search inside of me? What exactly does that mean? And what happens when your personal impression of the answers you are looking for, changes from day to day? If this means I'm not looking properly, then how does one look properly? I don't expect any one source or author or guru to answer all of these. My main grip is that none of them seem to answering any of them. : Hello my friend, I totally agree, I don't understand why I have so much confusion and when I get the answers I feel like I have asked the wrong questions. : I seems like I asked my mom why the sky is blue, she said because the different chemicals create a a haze of blue around us...I told her I already knew that tell why...I do this all the time though that is why with me every thing I ask gives me an answer I already know because I don't even know the proper questions to ask. I don't know how to communicate what I am thinking... I don't even know how to look for what I am searching for but plug away I do at a job I don't even know exists. I want to follow my path to the end... that's nice I say...what is my goal...find a goal focus achieve then what? : What is the piont to the end if the end already exists? : I wonder should I just start enjoying what is here or do I search for something more? the search is fun the confusion to learning is not, what pro beats what con? : Confusion kills me yet it is the only way to grow...maybe. A child gows, adults shrink? : Jenn

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