Kim,
I'm sorry that you can't share your thoughts with your friends. I too keep mine to myself. It's okay though. We are all on different levels of our journeys. Our friends might not be ready to hear where we are. I love them and accept where they are. It is however great when you find people who understand. Love all. BTW...I think it is an honor when an autistic child chooses you as a parent. It's such a gift in this world.